• my english teacher: your essay isn't very well put together
• me: my thoughts are stars i cannot fathom into constellations

Those literal chest pains accompanied by eyes filled with tears that won’t fall and a dried up throat to boot. Worst feeling ever.

Sometimes, I just need you to leave me alone. I just need my alone time. The more you nudge me, the more I want to push you away. Because in the end, you’re only going to get hurt if you keep trying to force me to lift my spirits.

I don’t wanna talk to you anymore. I just wanna forget about you and everything that has anything to do with you. Because everytime I get reminded of you, my heart starts tearing up again. What gets me, is the thought that you might not even be going through the same things as I am — that you’re completely fine without me, that you’ve moved on that easily while I’m stuck here with my stupid feelings for you that will never seem to go away. I wanna forget you. Please, let me forget you…

I’m the kind of guy who likes to pay attention to details. Like, I notice how a girl’s eyes light up when she smiles. I notice the difference between the look on her face when she’s happy because she did something special and when she’s happy because someone did something special for her. I notice how the slightest bit of change in her tone can mean something good or bad. And I notice it when she’s trying to tell me something even without saying anything. I’m that particular about details. I may know a lot about these things but I don’t really say much. I just simply like to observe.

I was finally able to watch “Love And Other Drugs” and can I just use “OMG” right now? Yes? Okay. O..M..G..! (That is so gay. Can I erase that? Of course I can but I won’t cos I already inserted effort into typing that and it’ll cost me more effort deleting it so.. yeah. Going back..) It’s probably one of the best romantic comedies I’ve seen in a while. And that’s not something you’d often hear from me say. Nope. I think “Friends With Benefits” and “No Strings Attached” got nothing on this film (and I’m talking about those romantic comedies for grown-ups only, you know, the ones with loads and loads of sex). Both were just “okay” movies, by the way. But I did enjoy the sex scenes. Still, this one takes the cake. Why? Because of Anne Hathaway’s breasts, duh? That’s why.

Seriously though, there was this scene where Maggie (Anne’s character) was making love with Jamie (Jake Gyllenhaal’s character) and her hands started shaking due to her condition which was Parkinson’s Disease, then Jamie immediately placed his hand on her hand. I think that was very romantic. A major plus points for the one who came up with it cos that scene just became my favorite.. which is why I had to screencap that moment. Sorry, I just had to.

I need to come clean, those weren’t the only screenshots I made. I think I have at least 20. Half of those are Anne Hathaway’s charming face (and her breasts). Gahd, I love her. Can I just marry her? Or if not, can I at least get to touch her boobs? Please..? C’mon, who wouldn’t want to. But just so we’re clear, I was really focusing on her smile, her eyes, her facial reactions and not on her boobs. Well, not JUST on her boobs I mean. But really guys, just look at her face. Look at her. <3

Kidding aside, I think it’s a worthwhile film. It’s funny, it’s sweet, it’s good. And kids? Please don’t watch this at home. Watch it at your friend’s house instead.

Someday I’m going to meet someone who will turn my whole world upside down, someone who will take my breath away. She will be special to me and I will do anything just so I can get to know her better. Someday I will ask her out to grab a cup of coffee. Days later we’ll go out on a few more dates. I will take her to places she has never been before and we’ll have loads of fun together. And someday, I’ll ask her to be my girlfriend. I’ll ask her in a way she’ll never forget for the rest of her life. She will say yes and I will be the happiest guy on Earth.

Someday I’m going to do absolutely everything to make her feel special and loved. Not just on Valentine’s Days, on our anniversary or on her birthday, but every single day. I’ll go out of my way to make her happy. Someday I’ll give her flowers just because it’s Tuesday. I’ll show off to the world how lucky I am to be hers. Someday I’ll take her to meet my parents and they will love her. Someday she’ll also take me to meet her parents and hopefully they will like me, too.

Someday I’m going to fall more in love with her and it will be like that forever. Someday I will go down on one knee and propose to her. I’ll tell her exactly how I feel, her heart will melt and she will say yes. Someday she and I will become.. WE. Someday we’ll be spending the rest of our lives together — building a beautiful home for our future children, travelling around the world and loving each other endlessly. Someday we’ll have the most beautiful kids. They will have my eyes and her gorgeous smile. They will look up to her and she will be a great mother.

Someday we’re going to have good days and we’ll be there for each other but more importantly, we’ll be there for the bed bad times. We’ll be there for one another when we’re at our worst to bring each other up and to remind each other that we’re the best. Some days will be hard. Most days will be bad. We’ll even be on the brink of falling apart, but we’ll pull through. I will be her headache and she will be my pain in the ass, but we will love each other in spite of that. We’ll fuss and fight during the day but we’ll be fighting for each other most of the time. We will remind each other why we fell in love in the first place and why we’re going to last. We won’t let anything come between us because we know that nothing can break a love like ours.

And someday we’ll both retire from our jobs and live somewhere far from the city. Some place with a great view. We’ll spend each night and every waking moment in each other’s arms. Even when her hair turns gray and my hair is all gone, I will love her just the same. We will spend the rest of our lives together and we’ll be like one those cute couples who struggle crossing the street, but we’ll cross the street together. Someday I’ll be the 80-year-old guy who takes the bus to the flower shop to buy her some flowers because that day will be a Tuesday. We’ll spend each day like it’s our last, and at the end of it all, we will be happy. Even if one of us passes, we will accept it. We will never have regrets because we will have spent as much time as we possibly could with each other. We will never really be apart for our memories will linger on.

Someday I’m going to live a full life like that. But until then, I will live for today and continue hoping that I will find her and that she will be mine.. someday.